How does one cope when they find themselves through different means, unemployed? Though the Director of Nursing job was interim, the Project Manager position was a couple of days per week but in the best interests of the hospital the position has been ‘deferred’ until a better financial structure has been put in place. This is fine with me, I will not be a hypocrite and moan after spending months trying to raise dollars to help support it, I will continue to work behind the scenes doing this.
This does not make me a martyr – I do not mean to offend by using this word as I said, it does not relate to me, there is not a religious sacrifice or any other sacrifice involved to this extent with the Keith Hospital. Though in recent years this word has been related to those dying for their cause, but that is a topic for another day.
I struggle living in a country town not having work to do, though it is nice to spend time with DH, I struggle being at home with him all day. He has lots to do and he goes out all day working in the area that he loves. He is a man of the land it is in his blood, he loves the animals, the hard work and finds nothing more satisfying than coming in at the end of the day face covered in dirt having accomplished his tasks. I on the other hand am not a farm worker, though I help out where I can, I can drive tractors to help shift things, pull vehicles out of being bogged, move hay bales to help feed the animals, I can’t do fencing without supervision due to the surgery on my hand many years ago. The plate and the pin in it give me grief if I do too much. I can shift cattle, sheep and open and shut gates but this is a very small part of life on the land. I do the book work and arduous tasks at the best of times. For all my friends who have businesses and do BAS statements it is time-consuming and at times extremely frustrating.
Unemployment gives people around you a false sense of what you are doing. I am still actively involved in doing the cook book for the Keith Hospital and Amy P our designer is doing an absolutely outstanding job – also in her spare time. We saw the first draft copy last night and now it has spurred us on to getting it complete, we have planned a launch and will start talking with book shops soon so that they are ready for purchase by Christmas. I have to work to do to help the process so will complete this today. But my main worry is where do I find work and earn an income to remain as independent as possible? We live far enough out of the township that I get comments on if it doesn’t pay your fuel bill why do you bother? I bother because I want to, wanting is not enough to give independence, financial or otherwise or create a job out of thin air. I am not bored as you can read three is much to do and I made the mistake this morning of asking for help to do the insurance claims that I know nothing about. Looks like it will be a long morning, lucky I have the afternoon to do the cook book commitments.